Dating In 2020, According to Me.

We live in unprecedented, times. I mean, I have seen somethings in my life but God, my head hurts. I am the most optimistic person about life and situations. I have been struggling lately to find the words on what the future hold for me concerning a relationship.

I do not think we super from writer's block. I believe we suffer fro releasing our authentic emotions in the hopes of gaining attention. It can be tiresome to find the words if we are always in search of the "right words." It takes time to create and edit when you have so much on your mind.

At the moment, my mind is on whether or not I should continue to date and put myself out there. I feel I am in this constant battle within myself, what I have learned growing up, how I now perceive relationships vs. what I believe they should be. Online dating, by all means in 2020, is not for the faint for heart. Please note: I take my seasons off where I do not date, focus on myself.

I am 33, and my time is not guaranteed. My faith gives me pause that I will live a long life; however, I do not know when that will end. When people say wait on God, I know they mean well; however, I feel the is an oxymoron. My spiritual self and my natural self battle with this concept daily. Is God waiting for me? Have I met the partner I should have been with only to pass him?

I want to be in a relationship because it is my desire, not because of societal or peer pressure. I know who I am as an individual, what I want, and for people to assume that you are not ready because you have yet to meet someone compatible is asinine.

Questions I ask myself: Is Kimberly, being too picky? I doubt it. I have taken a few things off my must-haves as I know i can be a little special. (cooking was one of them but, it is about to go back on the list since experiencing quarantine.) I am a selective woman, and the pool of men appears to be slim. There are single eligible bachelors out there! I have yet to meet one whose interest I will consider. I will take a nerdy tall, dark and handsome one for 500, Alex. Lol. Alex confirms my answer is correct and, I win the round. He gets the first couple of questions right, and we proceed. It is not a checklist; I ask clarifying questions. He seems to be interested, we are vibing, and then boom. Casper has appeared. The good ole ghoster. It seems EVERY TIME I mention someone who may be a potential they either disappear or show that we should NOT be together. Some would say this has got to be a sign to keep it to yourself, but I have done that before, and it still ended unsuccessfully.

It can be disheartening as a single person trying to date in these times. Especially now that we have dropped corona into the mix. Sheesh. That is another hurdle to get through. It proves to be interesting, yet, I have faith, and I will contuse to be optimistic that it will all work out. I love, love. I know that love will come.